Tale of a bleeding heart

I have heard tales, forgotten

I have known men, begotten

I have traversed this mystery,

And returned with my tale of a bleeding heart

I stand here, on this icy pavement

I see people, rushing about, chasing dreams

And as my eyes meet those forgotten

Their lips recite this tale of a bleeding heart

I watch them drown, I watch them rise

I watch them grow, each to their might

I stand here, all through time, to hear them speak

As they recite to me, their tale of a bleeding heart

I did see his eyes when he stabbed him

I did see his pain when the blood shed

I did go and sit beside, to hold his hand

As he recited to me, his tale of a bleeding heart

And here shall I always stand

With hope abound, with pleasure unmatched

Looking in the same direction

Still reciting, my tale of a bleeding heart...

Turning Tables

The sun glowed, mighty, over the mountain
The lustre glittered, gold
With the lush green grass spread
It was the arrival of spring


I had my world,
With dreams and beauty interwoven
I had my world,
With truth and lies interwoven


I thought I had conquered it all
I thought I had made them fall
And so proudly, I returned to my hole
Only to find, the tables had turned


The night was pale, the moon was dull
There was lament, in the stars
And they shivered, in the blue, there far away


Love me, praise me
With the pain you always had
Mock me, despise me,
With the laugh you always had


A distant bird, sang mellow
A distant shack, shone yellow
They dropped, with bodies entwined
The souls, abandoned, drown


And I stand here, deserted
Waiting for your arrival for my departure
My soul, reborn, here, at this hour of mourning
For here is where my world exists
For now is when my journey begins…

A prayer

Fill those spaces, empty, in my heart
Fill those crevices, vacant, in my soul
Fill those interstitial spaces in my dreams
With all that I want, with all that I need


Help me regain the wisdom I lost
Help me uncover the beauty I got
Give me the power to overcome time
Make every discovery, a symbol or a sign


O spirit! Encompass it all
Fill every space, every crevice in my life
Of truth and illusion, of lies and delusion


Transform this presence overwhelming
Make it into something fierce and undeniable
Help me grow, make me unstoppable
For in love, limitless, everything is possible...

Can't run from your self

I know I have to go
And as I try to do so
Thoughts flow, haphazard, here and there
I know I can't turn back


Its my heart you got
Kept safe till the very last beat
If you ever want to kill me,
Just drive a knife through your heart
And it is I, who will die


I know I have to go
But something makes it seem heavy
Is it your face or my own conscience
That tells me to turn back


And I take a step forward,
The forces magnify,
But there is no rope, no string tied
Yet something doesn't let me go


But I can't look back,
I know I have to go
And again, with another step,
Something tells me to turn back
And as I do, I look at that face of yours
And I give it all away, I run,
I run towards you, to hold you,
And say, I can't ever go...

Breaking the shell

Crushed by ice, covered with snow
Here I lie, numb
I don't know what I feel inside
Or maybe it is I don't feel anything


The 'reasons' are gone
The 'practical' things overstepped
Here I lie, in the grave of someone I was
Here I emerge, someone I am


Life will never be the same again
Cold my shelter, my self my temple
Now I will be happy, at last
Knowing that nothing can get to me, penetrate me


I slit my wrist
Nothing comes out, except for blood
Dark and cold, staining the gold
It spills, gushes down my fingers


And I try to feel the warmth
Of the vicious liquid, oozing out
A faint smile comes across my lips
Knowing I had been someone
Prudent, perplexed and placid
And I have become someone
Deranged, damaged, dazed and immune...

The difficult path

The mind is flustered
The voices are unclear
The cries are unheard
But, the hope is not lost


I have the courage to run
But then, I would be weak to do so
To take the easier choice and go
Leaving behind all I ever cared for
Along the way, losing a part of me


The blood was shed
And I feel the intruding pain
Surrounded by all of it
I am not affected, instead I am relieved
After all you always said I looked the best in red


I am not strong enough
To watch those tears trickling down
I am not stable enough
To see the blood-stained white rose, fall out of my hands


Wires surround my heart
Heat surges off my cuts
My cold feet make me numb
The chains weigh me down


Am I just an illusion, I ask you
A mirage, attractive, lacking real value?
Whatever.


I will sit right there, looking after you
While you float, fly, unrestricted
But you won’t realise, in every dimension
I will be watching over you always
Right there from the centre, holding you, keeping you


It can’t slow me, I won’t stop,
I will go on, taking you along
And someday, I know I will proudly look at and admire
The person standing there, in the mirror


And then, I will step back, slowly
I am not afraid, but I will
I will walk away from the rope, let my foot slip,
I will fall back, and I will fade away
But I will be happy and satisfied
If you greet me with just a smile…

Live life the way it is

For a long time
I have tried and done
But it doesn’t really matter
As I turn to leave
This silly, stupid heart remains behind

I move on, slowly, steadily
In a hope, a vain hope
I start running, fast,
But wherever I go
I just stand still, unable to move
As if I have something left behind

The sun bursts down to night
In the darkness, I feel my mind slip away
Into the vicious loops of thoughts
Memories are all that I have

They say moments pass, memories stay
But if memories were like the leaves that fall
Why do I carry them on my mind
Why don’t I see the pain that befalls
Why don’t I tell people to stop being kind

The seasons pass, for me
They never change
I am unable to keep time
Leading my life,
The lonely mess I have with me


And I will continue this way
For I enjoy every bit of it, the pain
The heart shatters, the mind goes numb
Still I am unable to do anything


I don't want to give up on the pain
Its a part of me now
I don't want to lose it, keep it along
Let it tear me apart, shred me into pieces
I will enjoy it nevertheless


I want to succumb to the coldness
Atleast I won't feel anything
I will then be relieved of everything
When I close my eyes forever
And then I will rest somewhere, peacefully
Till then, I will just live...