Reminiscent

A waterfall, amidst the hills

A thousand metres above the ground

Lush green life hides the mouth,

Reminiscent of the beauty she was.

And the water falls, high above the cliff

Into the solid rocks below,

Bouncing off surfaces, splashes flying everywhere

The noise is heard, deafening.

Melancholy, parting the moist air

Shattering into a million directions,

Reminiscent of the stained mirror it was.

Wet, he opens his eyes, watches

The water trickling down

Into the deep crater below,

Reminiscent of the being he was…

Just A Man

I am a sinner, full of flaws
I live my life by the luck of draws
I make mistakes, like we all do
You never get that, do you?
For once, just try and understand
I still do the best I can
Have you forgotten,
I am just a man...

Getting back

Longing for warmth, standing
Out in the open, hoping for rains
Veiled behind the mist, waiting
Eager to fly, break the chains

Youthful again, cheerful again
Over and over, reminiscing while
Ushering in a new dawn, a new chapter of life

Jovial as I might be
Adamant as I might have to be
Able I am, I think, I believe
Nihilism can’t get to me, I am just born again…

My Little Boy

The toys lay in a perfect place,
Enveloped in a sheath of dust
As his eyes searched the shore,
Swayed by a wave of lust
Sturdy and straight he stood
And its a smile, he said just
As the soaked windowsills shed
Those entangled layers of rust.


There I sat, smiling all the while
As they reminded me of my little boy.


As he looked again for me,
And started running to the sea
Quick and swift he was,
As he chased down that stingy bee
In a spur of excitement, he fell
He fell, and bruised his knee
I leapt out for him, and suddenly I realised
He was no longer my little boy.


And what a day it was,
When he adorned those medals in plenty
'See Dad, the best one right here', he said
And kept it on my hand
'Here it is, Its yours', he whispered, 'I brought it for you'
He was my jewel, shining bright
With this, he hugged me tight
And then he slipped over to the ground,
I reached out, and helped
As he said 'I will always be your little boy'


Thinking of all of this, sitting right there, I watched
As they brought him over to me, silent, eyes closed
'Wake up son, I am here, and here's your medal'
But he didn't listen to any of it
As a tear slowly rolled down my cheek,
And the reality dawned on me
I paused. What became of my little boy...

The quest and the conquest

The sun goes red, the sky auburn,

Walks there a soul, masked,

A mime in his own right, a master of his own self.

And its a beauty that ensues, dark as the night

Of cloudless space, in starry skies,

The perfect amalgamation with the bright.

Reveals his aspect, tell his eyes

A tale, not long bygone, of memories

Still haunting in troubled times.

Stops his mind, hide his lips

The tale, let it be forgotten.

Their words still persuade, their steps still follow

He runs, he escapes,

Those shadows, of zeal unprecedented.

He smiles,

An emotion, falsified

They believe, they revert

Quiet, to their lives, to their tales,

He walks on.

It hardly leaves him,

When he lets it climb

Trembling, uneasy, wounded grave

He stands, overwhelmed.

The sea roars, the waves gush

Mighty, over the sand, gold yet cold

They recede, to their core

And he recedes, among the silent.

He smiles, genuine,

The smile that wins, the smile that glows,

He removes his mask,

She watches, her eyes dazzle,

She smiles, with him, for him,

And finally, he finds

A mind with peace

A heart with love

He stops.

A simple night's desire

The clear, serene night sky, beheld the twilight

Lighting up those weary streets,

They were a bunch of those exquisite fireflies.

The crescent moon, peeped in

Like an infant, through the clouds

The white, sparkling moonlight

Did waltz, dancing to the tune

Of those mighty waves.

The seagulls whistled to the sea

While the dolphins played, ecstasy,

A bunch of lillies bloomed in the distance

While the cool breeze sang aloud to me

The marauder's symphony.

The autumn leaves whistled past,

There I opened my eyes, to look into hers

And let myself drown, in her depths

Slowly, with a smile,

I let my eyes close,

She accepted me with open arms...

Tale of a bleeding heart

I have heard tales, forgotten

I have known men, begotten

I have traversed this mystery,

And returned with my tale of a bleeding heart

I stand here, on this icy pavement

I see people, rushing about, chasing dreams

And as my eyes meet those forgotten

Their lips recite this tale of a bleeding heart

I watch them drown, I watch them rise

I watch them grow, each to their might

I stand here, all through time, to hear them speak

As they recite to me, their tale of a bleeding heart

I did see his eyes when he stabbed him

I did see his pain when the blood shed

I did go and sit beside, to hold his hand

As he recited to me, his tale of a bleeding heart

And here shall I always stand

With hope abound, with pleasure unmatched

Looking in the same direction

Still reciting, my tale of a bleeding heart...

Turning Tables

The sun glowed, mighty, over the mountain
The lustre glittered, gold
With the lush green grass spread
It was the arrival of spring


I had my world,
With dreams and beauty interwoven
I had my world,
With truth and lies interwoven


I thought I had conquered it all
I thought I had made them fall
And so proudly, I returned to my hole
Only to find, the tables had turned


The night was pale, the moon was dull
There was lament, in the stars
And they shivered, in the blue, there far away


Love me, praise me
With the pain you always had
Mock me, despise me,
With the laugh you always had


A distant bird, sang mellow
A distant shack, shone yellow
They dropped, with bodies entwined
The souls, abandoned, drown


And I stand here, deserted
Waiting for your arrival for my departure
My soul, reborn, here, at this hour of mourning
For here is where my world exists
For now is when my journey begins…

A prayer

Fill those spaces, empty, in my heart
Fill those crevices, vacant, in my soul
Fill those interstitial spaces in my dreams
With all that I want, with all that I need


Help me regain the wisdom I lost
Help me uncover the beauty I got
Give me the power to overcome time
Make every discovery, a symbol or a sign


O spirit! Encompass it all
Fill every space, every crevice in my life
Of truth and illusion, of lies and delusion


Transform this presence overwhelming
Make it into something fierce and undeniable
Help me grow, make me unstoppable
For in love, limitless, everything is possible...

Can't run from your self

I know I have to go
And as I try to do so
Thoughts flow, haphazard, here and there
I know I can't turn back


Its my heart you got
Kept safe till the very last beat
If you ever want to kill me,
Just drive a knife through your heart
And it is I, who will die


I know I have to go
But something makes it seem heavy
Is it your face or my own conscience
That tells me to turn back


And I take a step forward,
The forces magnify,
But there is no rope, no string tied
Yet something doesn't let me go


But I can't look back,
I know I have to go
And again, with another step,
Something tells me to turn back
And as I do, I look at that face of yours
And I give it all away, I run,
I run towards you, to hold you,
And say, I can't ever go...

Breaking the shell

Crushed by ice, covered with snow
Here I lie, numb
I don't know what I feel inside
Or maybe it is I don't feel anything


The 'reasons' are gone
The 'practical' things overstepped
Here I lie, in the grave of someone I was
Here I emerge, someone I am


Life will never be the same again
Cold my shelter, my self my temple
Now I will be happy, at last
Knowing that nothing can get to me, penetrate me


I slit my wrist
Nothing comes out, except for blood
Dark and cold, staining the gold
It spills, gushes down my fingers


And I try to feel the warmth
Of the vicious liquid, oozing out
A faint smile comes across my lips
Knowing I had been someone
Prudent, perplexed and placid
And I have become someone
Deranged, damaged, dazed and immune...

The difficult path

The mind is flustered
The voices are unclear
The cries are unheard
But, the hope is not lost


I have the courage to run
But then, I would be weak to do so
To take the easier choice and go
Leaving behind all I ever cared for
Along the way, losing a part of me


The blood was shed
And I feel the intruding pain
Surrounded by all of it
I am not affected, instead I am relieved
After all you always said I looked the best in red


I am not strong enough
To watch those tears trickling down
I am not stable enough
To see the blood-stained white rose, fall out of my hands


Wires surround my heart
Heat surges off my cuts
My cold feet make me numb
The chains weigh me down


Am I just an illusion, I ask you
A mirage, attractive, lacking real value?
Whatever.


I will sit right there, looking after you
While you float, fly, unrestricted
But you won’t realise, in every dimension
I will be watching over you always
Right there from the centre, holding you, keeping you


It can’t slow me, I won’t stop,
I will go on, taking you along
And someday, I know I will proudly look at and admire
The person standing there, in the mirror


And then, I will step back, slowly
I am not afraid, but I will
I will walk away from the rope, let my foot slip,
I will fall back, and I will fade away
But I will be happy and satisfied
If you greet me with just a smile…

Live life the way it is

For a long time
I have tried and done
But it doesn’t really matter
As I turn to leave
This silly, stupid heart remains behind

I move on, slowly, steadily
In a hope, a vain hope
I start running, fast,
But wherever I go
I just stand still, unable to move
As if I have something left behind

The sun bursts down to night
In the darkness, I feel my mind slip away
Into the vicious loops of thoughts
Memories are all that I have

They say moments pass, memories stay
But if memories were like the leaves that fall
Why do I carry them on my mind
Why don’t I see the pain that befalls
Why don’t I tell people to stop being kind

The seasons pass, for me
They never change
I am unable to keep time
Leading my life,
The lonely mess I have with me


And I will continue this way
For I enjoy every bit of it, the pain
The heart shatters, the mind goes numb
Still I am unable to do anything


I don't want to give up on the pain
Its a part of me now
I don't want to lose it, keep it along
Let it tear me apart, shred me into pieces
I will enjoy it nevertheless


I want to succumb to the coldness
Atleast I won't feel anything
I will then be relieved of everything
When I close my eyes forever
And then I will rest somewhere, peacefully
Till then, I will just live...

Realisations

Here I am, alone
Standing on this lonely road
I don't have the courage to see ahead
I don't have the desire to look back


And then I ask myself
Why am I standing here
In the dark, all by myself


Is it worth it
To think, to contemplate
And, I close my eyes and pray
For peace, to be relieved


And as the rains come by
Splashing down on my face
So do the tears start
Strolling down my eyes


And I realise, sometimes,
Though the strongest of winds 
Can’t even shake you
It is the lightest of breeze
That can rip you apart...

The enigma called Life

Life is a journey
An enigma yet to be deciphered
It goes on, never stops
No one can change its course

People come, people go
People try, people fail
And then there is sadness
But I say, what could it change

All gloomy days
A pool of tears
What is life except
So many failures

But the sun will still rise
As usual, the wind will blow
The moon will still be lit
In the end, what could it change

Make a few smile
What harm would it do?
Fight back tears for a few happy faces
What more could it have changed…

Darkness

The sunlight and day give way
And there is night, no light
Darkness fades in
Ever so subtle, ever so quiet


And I feel the darkness
Spread from within
I feel myself cut open, as a knife drives in
Stabbing me, straight in the heart


And darkness is all that spreads
Blood flows down, shiny yet pale
I feel infected, infected from within


The poison climbs up,
Up the body, from the heart into the mind
But, it feels sweet, sweeter,
Than everything, superficial and temporary
And there is pain, sharp as a sting
But it brings relief


I hear a gentle laugh
As a smile spreads across my face
I knew it was all I wanted
I knew it was all I needed


And then my eyes close
Yet no sleep sets in
Escape is all I try for, escape,
Into the world unknown
If death is all I shall get
Then, death is all that I want…

The night as it was

I was sitting there
And it started drizzling
It soothed me, refreshed me
Somehow I felt happy


And the journey began
The giggles started, the talks took over
The silence, everyone was elated
Just to be there and share


It was the end of something beautiful
And the start of nothingness
But we were proud to have done
And ended on a brilliant note


Somehow the things got worse
The anger took over the joy
And, there was the showdown
The day was supposed to end on a high


I let it all out
It was sadness all around
Again, I was sitting there
And it was raining


Now I had someone to sit beside
Somehow it soothed me
And I felt happy again…

You and lies

I cant see the things
I need to feel them too
Feelings lie, so do the sight
Everything culminates into a lie
There is nothing eternal, as they say
Except this one beautiful thing
The strings attached are loosened
The threads, loose, are bound
Everything culminates again into a lie
I need to find the answers
The answers, which lie, floating in thin air
I want someone to give me those
Will you?

Hurt and lost

You said you were selfish
Never did I believe
Today I realise
That you were also one of the lies
Why did you say you care
When you couldn't mean your words
Why did you say you cant
When you already have?